Zoe, how are you 4 years old already? Wasn't it just last Christmas that I bought your first Christmas dress with matching velvet black shoes & a tiny red bow for your hair? I pulled those out the other day and couldn't believe how tiny they were. Now we just got your Christmas dress for this year (after taking back the other b/c Mommy changed her mind) and tried it on you tonight. You looked so pretty in it, twirling around and showing me how you were like a ballerina. Wasn't it just last year that I pulled up your crazy length of hair (or lack of length) into two tight piggy tails, bound and determined your hair was long enough and ready for the new style? Now tonight I brushed out your unbelievably long and thick hair while Daddy read us the Bible Story. The verse about a woman's hair being her glory is very true with you. You have the most beautiful hair. I always ask you if we can trade hair, and every time you laugh and say, "Mommy, I can't pull my hair off and stick it on you! It won't stay!" And wasn't it just last spring that I made a big sister tee shirt for you so we could announce to our family and friends that a new baby was coming into our family? And now you prove over and over to your little brother that you are indeed the big sister that knows more, can do more, understands more, and knows whats best. You are also the big sister that I catch giving Max tons of hugs and kisses, reading to him, and chasing each other around and around the kitchen with your own little game just the two of you made up. Wasn't it just seasons ago that I watched your Daddy be so gentle and protective over you, making sure everybody knew that your newborn head needed support? Now I'm the one that sometimes gets nervous when I watch him throw you up in the air, catching you or hanging you upside down by the legs while tickling you at the same time. You're always wanting Daddy to do "stunts" with you. All of these special moments seem to have gone by so fast. I remind myself almost everyday to cherish these "little" years with you. Zoe, I have cherished the 4 years and 9 months you were in my belly with you. You are such a delight to me. I tell people that right now you are that stage where you're my little buddy. We have such a good time together. Your personality has come out to be more and more like mine which warms my heart. You're silly, odd, all girly yet sort of nerdy at the same time, love parties and people, sassy, have strange collections, and are incredibly stubborn all at the same time. As your Daddy often says, she's her mother's daughter! :) I pray for you a lot Zoe. I pray that you will become God's princess and allow Him to be the true love of your life. I pray that God provides one of his princes to be your husband, and that prince will fight for you, love you, and take better than good care of you. I pray that you won't have to deal with the struggles that I've dealt with (internal and external); that you will learn from my mistakes and failures, believing all the while that no matter what you do, God is full of mercy and grace, loving us through our dirt and grime and washing us clean over and over. I pray that you will have a sweet spirit and treat others kindly. I pray that you will ask for wisdom from God to help you make difficult and day to day choices. I pray that God will provide solid Christian friends to surround you in your childhood and on into your adult life. I pray that you will take your strong will and train it to stand strong in what is true and right. I pray that you will be a woman of compassion and forgiveness. I pray that you will be content in all things and circumstances and not allow the world's pressure to make you desire more. I pray that you focus on your inner beauty more than your outer beauty, treating your body as the sacred temple it is. And finally, I pray that you will live by the Holy Spirit so He can help you do all of these things.
Zoe, you are the apple of my eye. You will always have the special title as my first born. I pray that we are able to celebrate many more birthdays together. Happy 4th Birthday to the one whose eyes light up the room and who lights up my heart. Mama loves you Zoe Girl!
Forever and ever,
Mommy
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